Saturday, 25 June 2011

你没想过 她是真的累了

你知道哦吗?因为你对她的
会令她觉得
也许你们的开始是错的
也许你们不该超越朋友的关系
也许你们都不了解对方
也许你们都需要更多自由
也许你们需要的对方都给不了

那么多的也许,你和她都不能保证你们有多适合对方

试着回想,

刚开始的时候,
她的笑容是多么的真实多么的甜美
她的性格是多么的温柔多么的体贴

现在呢?
几乎每丝笑容都是假的勉强的
几乎每天脾气都很暴躁很小气

到底怎么搞的?别说她变了  因为只有你才有能力令她改变!

再仔细想想,
曾经你只要一天不见她会有多少的思念 
曾经你手上握着电话每天会发多少信息给她
曾经你放弃多少睡眠时间来陪她度过她失眠的夜晚
曾经你在她难过的时候用多少的心思把她的笑容换回来
现在还剩   多少

没关系,你可以背着良心对她说 你对她不曾变过  她不会介意

你做了多少对不起她的事,自己心知肚明
你一次又一次地重复,甚至一次比一次更严重
为什么她可以一次又一次的原谅你?你有试着了解吗?

你只会觉得 她原谅了就雨过天晴
在她说了“原谅你” 这句话后 你松了口气  继续做想做的事
那么她的?原谅不代表忘记  在还没忘记之前 谁给她安慰?谁能把肩膀借给她?没人

你知道吗?她也只是个女人不是超人

她不喜欢哭,所以在朋友面前总是嘻嘻哈哈的大笑(甚至被朋友问受了什么刺激怎么一直笑)
可是回到家后,独自一个人的她 能够忍耐多久?还不是像个小孩一样大声的哭了出来

到了她真的不再为你伤心为你哭的那天
不要感到惊奇,她已经被你伤得麻
到了她不再对你发脾气对的那天
不要感到不寻常她已经不在乎


Monday, 13 June 2011

Real story .




Girl , knew something , she not necessarily to get angry of it .
Maybe will be shocked , feel surprised of it .
But maybe only stunned for awhile , and doesn't look panic ..
Her heart beats will be so fast and and the heart started to feel hurts ..

The boy look like ... something conceal to her .
He's thinking of she knew something , but he doesn't admit anything in front of her .
He look nervous when the girl said something about it , then the girl told him that she's just kidding or said for fun.
He was relieved after that .

She's suspect , confused , worry , hurts .. She don't know what to do for the next ..
She hope the boy will be honest to her , she don't want to check up for the things that would make her hurts . 
Boy said , don't worry , I'll be honest with you all the time ..
Did he really meant what he say ?
The girl trust him , believe him ..
In fact , she's just don't want to accept the fact .

Please respect your girl friend ,
don't too over with other girl except of her 
Not everyone can accept it 
Even she look like nothing happened ,
but you sure that her heart doesn't hurt at all ?
She's just learnt how to cover her tears 
and approve the teardrops only appear in her heart , not on her face. 

Friday, 10 June 2011

For boys .

Love around us , almost just the same .
Starting a relationship with smile , sweetness , happiness .
End up the relationship with tears , hurts , sadness
Girl easily feel hurt , sad then tears drop automatically .
Boys more strong , not that easy to cry , they choose to be silent .

Cheating , Conceal , Lying , are always around between a couple .
She trust you , doesn't believe or accept the fact that you're sorry to her .

Everyone has a limit , she forgive you one time doesn't mean you can do whatever you like .
Especially if you'd made a promise that you won't repeat the mistake , don't break it please .
Once you break it , she'll not easy to believe you anymore .
Although believe , I sure that will not be hundred percent anymore .

Some girls choose to be silence after knew something hurts .
She hurt , sad , and cried .
But she didn't do any negative decision .
Although she cry in front of you , she will endure the tears too or act normal to kidding with you at the last .
Not she don't sad anymore , is she don't want you to sad and worry about her too much .
She didn't choose to separate , doesn't mean she don't care , it's mean she love you too much .
Don't ever willing to end up this relationship .
Because she trust the word " forever " , and it's because of you .
She try her best to achieve whatever you want .
Even the impossible things for her , I mean forever .

Boys , please cherish the girl that really love you much :') 

Wednesday, 8 June 2011

Days in K.K

I'd told you guys that I'm going to K.K last Sunday . He's in K.K too that time . He told me that we got time to meet up on Monday morning , I'm feeling so happy of course . I was thinking , Ouhhh Yeahh ! Finally ! Finally I get what I wanna hear :D ..

But it's too bad at last ! My mum was busying with doing all the thing about the apartment  that she bought at CCA . I get a good news , the apartment that my mum bought are just same area as my dear :D .. I  went to Suria Sabah for meet him up , but it's too late , we only meet for around 15 minutes ? I think . Not for so long , or maybe can say don't even enough time . Sigh* .. He gave me a hugged and a kissed . Then he went together with his camp members .

Well , I'd nothing to do there . I went to there only for meet him up . My cousin came too to watch the movie " KungFu Panda II " at the cinema . I was shopping there , there's not really a good shopping mall for me , not so many stuff bought from there .

Nothing special for Tuesday I think ? Only went to 1 Borneo . Oh ya ! I bought a female toy poodle , so cute ! I named her Micky  . She's only 6 months big . Her birth date is 12th December , me and my dear's anniversary is 11th December . It's only difference of a day .

Here are some of Micky's picture



Friday, 3 June 2011

不是说声“不在乎”就可以什么感觉也没有。

有时候,亲眼目睹的事实跟感觉不一定能摆在一起。事实归事实,感觉归感觉。即使知道了事实,知道并不是想象中的那样  可能会松一口气  但感觉也不会因事实而改变。因为始始终是亲眼目睹自己根本不想看到的事情。心中的刺,不是说放下就能完完全全的不在乎。



看到我不寻常的表情,你懂了我在想什么。你一开口就是不停的解释,重复同样的话,为的只是推卸我在你身上定下得罪。我知道那是应该的,让我清楚事情的来龙去脉本来就是应该的。可是你是否为我想过我的感受和心情?有安慰我吗?我知道了事实又能怎样?心情还是会因为看到的事情而开心不起来。解释不用重复,我相信因为我爱你。可是安慰的话,我永远都不嫌多,不嫌烦。总比一直听着你解释然后自己不断想着那件事来的好。你让我懂了事实,却没让我懂如何对你更放心。总是提心吊胆,因为你总是重复我一直很担心的事。时不时就想起看到你们单独,超越朋友关系的时候。可能妳*会说我太敏感,太小气,爱吃醋,因为你们只是你们所谓的*很好的朋友而已。但,“好朋友” , 不能时常拿来当借口。再怎么好的朋友,依你们的关系,在我面前就避忌点好吗?拜托了。



有时候,答应过不会在意,不会胡思乱想,也未必会遵守承诺。因为根本控制不了心里所想,所担心的事情,尤其是关于你。口头上是答应了,但“心”未必会依着说过的话去做。担心,怀疑,误会,都是由心发出来的,不是嘴巴能控制得了。

我听了一句,令我心很痛的话,“为什么你总是要误会我?” 。我想说,你有令我放心,令我对你豪不怀疑的一次吗?可是我选者了沉默。你只懂尽全力让我相信你,最好是对你豪不怀疑,不误会。你说我答应过了不再胡思乱想,不再在乎,不再怀疑,可是我并没有遵守我答应的事。拜托,我也想什么都不理,过得无忧无虑啊。担心,对你来说是我想太多。怀疑,对你来说是我对你不够信任。误会,对你来说是我蛮不讲理。对,我是反悔了当初的承诺,那又能怎样?我控制不了。最近我学会了用一个笑脸,一个笑声来伪装自己,来掩饰心中的痛。为的只是让你不会感到压力,不担心我。如果有哪天,我真的不在乎,不担心, 不怀疑,不误会了的时候  千万别意外,别惊讶  因为都是你照成的。我保证那时的我  已经对你没感觉 也累了


                        18th December 2010

我们大概也会不到这个时候了吧? :')


Wednesday, 1 June 2011

Never blame on anyone .

Sometime you didn't answer my call , then send me a message .
To let me know you're inconvenient to answer the phone .
Well , I know the reason :')
I didn't get mad , angry or whatever .
Try to relax myself , make my emotion to be calm situation . Not to think so much .
I did it every time , but I hurt myself .
Feel so hard to endured tears not to let it drop .
Feel so hard to control my voice to let you couldn't heard I'm crying .
I'll tell you how I fell sometime , but sometime I didn't .
Because I know that you can't do anything , can't change the fact .
I didn't blame on you , I really didn't mean to blame on you .
It's not your fault . It's me .
*I'm the one who made everything become like this .
*I'm the one who changed the good life to be the worst for everyone .
*I'm the one who made her against about us .
I know , I know what's my fault .
Therefor , I won't blame on anyone around me .
It's more than enough for me to have a life with all of you , my buddies , my sister .
Especially you , my dear .
Even I feel hard or feel hurt with my life ,
I'll still try my best to cherish my life .
Cherish everyone , everything in my life ,