Friday, 10 June 2011

For boys .

Love around us , almost just the same .
Starting a relationship with smile , sweetness , happiness .
End up the relationship with tears , hurts , sadness
Girl easily feel hurt , sad then tears drop automatically .
Boys more strong , not that easy to cry , they choose to be silent .

Cheating , Conceal , Lying , are always around between a couple .
She trust you , doesn't believe or accept the fact that you're sorry to her .

Everyone has a limit , she forgive you one time doesn't mean you can do whatever you like .
Especially if you'd made a promise that you won't repeat the mistake , don't break it please .
Once you break it , she'll not easy to believe you anymore .
Although believe , I sure that will not be hundred percent anymore .

Some girls choose to be silence after knew something hurts .
She hurt , sad , and cried .
But she didn't do any negative decision .
Although she cry in front of you , she will endure the tears too or act normal to kidding with you at the last .
Not she don't sad anymore , is she don't want you to sad and worry about her too much .
She didn't choose to separate , doesn't mean she don't care , it's mean she love you too much .
Don't ever willing to end up this relationship .
Because she trust the word " forever " , and it's because of you .
She try her best to achieve whatever you want .
Even the impossible things for her , I mean forever .

Boys , please cherish the girl that really love you much :') 

Wednesday, 8 June 2011

Days in K.K

I'd told you guys that I'm going to K.K last Sunday . He's in K.K too that time . He told me that we got time to meet up on Monday morning , I'm feeling so happy of course . I was thinking , Ouhhh Yeahh ! Finally ! Finally I get what I wanna hear :D ..

But it's too bad at last ! My mum was busying with doing all the thing about the apartment  that she bought at CCA . I get a good news , the apartment that my mum bought are just same area as my dear :D .. I  went to Suria Sabah for meet him up , but it's too late , we only meet for around 15 minutes ? I think . Not for so long , or maybe can say don't even enough time . Sigh* .. He gave me a hugged and a kissed . Then he went together with his camp members .

Well , I'd nothing to do there . I went to there only for meet him up . My cousin came too to watch the movie " KungFu Panda II " at the cinema . I was shopping there , there's not really a good shopping mall for me , not so many stuff bought from there .

Nothing special for Tuesday I think ? Only went to 1 Borneo . Oh ya ! I bought a female toy poodle , so cute ! I named her Micky  . She's only 6 months big . Her birth date is 12th December , me and my dear's anniversary is 11th December . It's only difference of a day .

Here are some of Micky's picture



Friday, 3 June 2011

不是说声“不在乎”就可以什么感觉也没有。

有时候,亲眼目睹的事实跟感觉不一定能摆在一起。事实归事实,感觉归感觉。即使知道了事实,知道并不是想象中的那样  可能会松一口气  但感觉也不会因事实而改变。因为始始终是亲眼目睹自己根本不想看到的事情。心中的刺,不是说放下就能完完全全的不在乎。



看到我不寻常的表情,你懂了我在想什么。你一开口就是不停的解释,重复同样的话,为的只是推卸我在你身上定下得罪。我知道那是应该的,让我清楚事情的来龙去脉本来就是应该的。可是你是否为我想过我的感受和心情?有安慰我吗?我知道了事实又能怎样?心情还是会因为看到的事情而开心不起来。解释不用重复,我相信因为我爱你。可是安慰的话,我永远都不嫌多,不嫌烦。总比一直听着你解释然后自己不断想着那件事来的好。你让我懂了事实,却没让我懂如何对你更放心。总是提心吊胆,因为你总是重复我一直很担心的事。时不时就想起看到你们单独,超越朋友关系的时候。可能妳*会说我太敏感,太小气,爱吃醋,因为你们只是你们所谓的*很好的朋友而已。但,“好朋友” , 不能时常拿来当借口。再怎么好的朋友,依你们的关系,在我面前就避忌点好吗?拜托了。



有时候,答应过不会在意,不会胡思乱想,也未必会遵守承诺。因为根本控制不了心里所想,所担心的事情,尤其是关于你。口头上是答应了,但“心”未必会依着说过的话去做。担心,怀疑,误会,都是由心发出来的,不是嘴巴能控制得了。

我听了一句,令我心很痛的话,“为什么你总是要误会我?” 。我想说,你有令我放心,令我对你豪不怀疑的一次吗?可是我选者了沉默。你只懂尽全力让我相信你,最好是对你豪不怀疑,不误会。你说我答应过了不再胡思乱想,不再在乎,不再怀疑,可是我并没有遵守我答应的事。拜托,我也想什么都不理,过得无忧无虑啊。担心,对你来说是我想太多。怀疑,对你来说是我对你不够信任。误会,对你来说是我蛮不讲理。对,我是反悔了当初的承诺,那又能怎样?我控制不了。最近我学会了用一个笑脸,一个笑声来伪装自己,来掩饰心中的痛。为的只是让你不会感到压力,不担心我。如果有哪天,我真的不在乎,不担心, 不怀疑,不误会了的时候  千万别意外,别惊讶  因为都是你照成的。我保证那时的我  已经对你没感觉 也累了


                        18th December 2010

我们大概也会不到这个时候了吧? :')


Wednesday, 1 June 2011

Never blame on anyone .

Sometime you didn't answer my call , then send me a message .
To let me know you're inconvenient to answer the phone .
Well , I know the reason :')
I didn't get mad , angry or whatever .
Try to relax myself , make my emotion to be calm situation . Not to think so much .
I did it every time , but I hurt myself .
Feel so hard to endured tears not to let it drop .
Feel so hard to control my voice to let you couldn't heard I'm crying .
I'll tell you how I fell sometime , but sometime I didn't .
Because I know that you can't do anything , can't change the fact .
I didn't blame on you , I really didn't mean to blame on you .
It's not your fault . It's me .
*I'm the one who made everything become like this .
*I'm the one who changed the good life to be the worst for everyone .
*I'm the one who made her against about us .
I know , I know what's my fault .
Therefor , I won't blame on anyone around me .
It's more than enough for me to have a life with all of you , my buddies , my sister .
Especially you , my dear .
Even I feel hard or feel hurt with my life ,
I'll still try my best to cherish my life .
Cherish everyone , everything in my life ,